So - I've been VERY discouraged lately. I have gotten chubby. When I've told this to a few people, they always say "well, you just had a baby." Well - I hate to break it to you people - but this is NOT baby weight. I was back down to my pre-baby weight at my 6 week post-appt. This extra weight is from stress, being SO busy that I'm tired and lazy and don't make time to exercise... and quite frankly, eating too much crap.
And - I'm SICK of it. Everyone has fat clothes, right? The clothes that you have and wear on the days that you feel fat. The clothes that hid the chub and make you feel slightly better about yourself on the "fat days." But, sadly, I've gotten to the point where I still look fat in my fat clothes. And when you still look fat in your fat clothes, you KNOW you have a problem. I'm not about to go out and buy a new wardrobe in a bigger size!! So, the only other option - lose some weight!
I've had some GREAT inspiration over the past few weeks. My cousin Jeni and my Aunt Rita have both lost SO much weight. I'm completely and totally jealous. Cheryl is trying really hard and is a HUGE motivating factor for me. Not to mention, I KNOW I can do it. The first summer that I moved up here and was running at night time with Melanie and Jen, I lost... maybe 10 pounds. So I KNOW I can do it. I just have SUCH a hard time getting motivated.
And my final inspiration - I have always rolled my eyes when people tell me they are going to take a vacation after graduation... but then when graduation comes, they say they can't afford it or can't take the time. So... I decided not to be that way. (Even though I CAN'T afford it and it will be hard to find time. ha ha) I AM planning a vacation for after Tony's graduation. Can't say where or when (in case Tony decides to tune in) but I WANT to feel good on this vacation. I've always said to Tony that my dream vay-cay is chilling on a Hawaiian beach with him. So - whether it's Hawaii or not - this is my goal. I want to feel good about myself in my swimsuit in Hawaii. (Now come on, NO ONE feels good in a swimsuit - I've learned this after years of watching my tiny friends still feel like junk in a swimsuit - but I don't want to feel like I'm in danger of being thrown in the water because someone mistakes me for a beached whale!!)
My goal is for the next 8 months - until 08/18/12. Why? First, because Tony's national test is August 17, 2012 - so Aug 18 is my goal to feel great because we will OFFICIALLY be done with school!!! YEAH!!! (Don't read this part Holly!...) and second, because it's my birthday. Perfect day!!
I was venting to Tony (which always is dangerous to vent to a spouse about weight... you know what I mean, right?? - but I'm DESPERATE!) and Tony convinced me to start a blog. I'm TOTALLY for it - because I think it's the only way for me to get results.
So... here's to the beginning of Kristi Muffin Top! (Come on, AWESOME name, right?!?!) :) The blog about my 8 month weight loss journey!! Full of nutrition info, tips/ideas, recipes and my health newsletter! Here we go.....
